Unbearable Lightness

Today as I walked into my house

My mind was only focused on food

What was I going to eat? How many calories would it be?

Should I work out now, later, or both times?

I felt myself becomeing anxious

So I sat down at my computer to check my e-mail and give my mind a break

I felt so hungry

I walked over to the cabinet and pulled out a can of tuna

60 calories if I eat the whole thing

2 servings worth and I knew I would

I looked at the shelves above

Baby food that belonged to my 6 month old nephew for when he stayed over

I remebered reading something on the internet about women eating baby food to lose the last, hard 10-15 pounds

I needed to loose 40

I took some down and began to read the backs of them

Surely, I thought to myself, eating 80 calories of peach-banana-granola baby food was better than tuna slathered in mayo

Surely, it was better than starving