Horoscope

Quickie:

Live a more active lifestlye today and you will build up your ego -- so get active!

Overview:

It's a good day for you -- your energy levels are peaking, and you feel better about those weird events of the recent past. See if you can push ahead toward something even bigger and wilder!

(I've never been one to get hung up on these types of things, but this was freaky..)

Leaving Lucifer

"When it's really quiet like this, that's when I truly hate myself.."

This is me, this is all I'll ever be

And maybe it was the fact that someone loved me

Even at my worst

That convinced me to give up

What punishment comes to those who betray God?

Stuck in the tenth level of Hell

One that Dante had forgotten

One that I have created for myself

For those who decieve

The human mind is a funny thing

We proceed to do things we know are wrong

Because it gives us a feeling of exhilaration

I want something different for myself

I have felt the ecstacy of the edge, but now I'd rather be normal

I don't want to continue to feel burdened by my actions

And maybe this time around things will be different and God can forgive me

He is all that I need, My hope

Comradery

Lately I find myself feeling anxious

Like I'm waiting for something to happen

Something that I don't even know about

And the wierd part is, in a sense, I am waiting for things

I'm awaiting answers

To questions I don't understand or am too scared of confronting

Maybe I should have kept my word

Maybe now is a good time to stop lieing to myself about the person I've become

And the hardest part is looking them in the eyes or sharing a laugh with them

Because I know I don't deserve it, because I know I chose wrong

And still did it despite my better knowledge

And when I'm looking at myself in the mirror, I put my hand over the reflection of my face

Partly because I don't want to see myself crying, but more so because I'm so disgusted with myself

Who am I? What have I let myself become?

I am a stranger to myself and I am a prisoner of my own thoughts, sins, & mistakes

It felt good for those moments to feel connected to something

But feelings come in many forms

Happiness, lust, trust, love, betrayal, forgiveness, letting go..