My guardian Angel

When I look back I bear in mind all the mistakes I made
Mistakes like thinking "I hope I don't end up like her"
and more importantly believing I was destined to become her
Today her life is as plentiful as any, if not more
And truth is, I would be blessed if my life turned out to be even a quarter of how good hers is
Sometimes people take for granted the smallest of things
Like the simplicity of smiling at the dinner table
Something that seems so natural
So today and for the rest of my life I will be thankful for the fact that God has blessed me with the greatest of family
The most unique
And to my guardian angel who heard my cries, thank you
I now realize the kind of life I want to lead
Something more spiritual, more refined
Being alone has never been so tranquil
It is just what I needed
Brawer family- Things will get better if they have not already ceased to
You're always in my thoughts and prayers
She has changed my life more than you know it
Artie- I made sure to stuff myself for the both of us yesterday
I'm sure our college essay will be liked, if not loved..


The Prayer

I remember a time when I hadn't had much to worry about
And usually the things that worried me even in the slightest manner were not my own worries
To an extent this frustrated me
I guess I thought having worries made your life exciting
I was so wrong for thinking this
At least now I see
Life cannot be measured in the way you spend your Friday nights, or how many friends you have, or even if you've experienced love
Life is not a measurable object, not a force to act upon
Whoever said there were no rules in life must have had it coming to them
There are rules when it comes down to anything, and so there has to be rules to living
I pray now that God forgive me in my time of need
For all the rules I did break
God had blessed me with intellect
And I refused to use it
For so many years God had steered me on the right path
But I chose to walk ahead
And so if this is God's way of letting me know that I have to listen
Well then I'm listening
I'm hoping He will listen too